Reflexions on what has passed and what will come

Ok we are officially on New Year's Eve!! Yey? I guess this calls for a retrospection of the past year and an evaluation of what I want for the following year.

Well, I kind of have a hard time defining the year that has just passed. It was... exhilarating, blissful, frustrating, enlightening, childish, annoying, difficult, easy, amazing, painful, enriching at times and empty at others. Each moment has its label, each memory has a different emotion attached to it. And so we grow and we evolve. This year has not been perfect, but that's because life is not perfect and we are not perfect. The only thing we can do is make the most of it and live without any regrets. And I think I have accomplished that this year because there is NOTHING that I regret (except maybe for one drunken night, but even that is debatable because, hey, I learned a lot about myself!).

So what do I want for the next year? Hmm tough question... I'd have to say that the thing I need most right now is balance. I need to figure myself out (and find the answers to my Things I Need To Figure Out list), and find a balance for myself. For the past year I have focused too much on relationships and not enough on myself. So I'd like to dedicate the following year to being egoistical, self-centered and a well rounded person. I want to start drawing again, I want to get back in shape (well that sentence is not actually correct since I never was that much in shape), I want to tackle the books on my To Read list (I know I have a lot of lists), I want to start writing again. I suddenly find myself with a lot of time on my hands and this is good. I have been running for time almost continuously for the past year (or at least the past 6 months). Now I want to take the time to do something with myself. I never fitted the housewife with 3 children running around bill and I think I never will. So might as well embrace that and embrace the person that I am and that I could be, that I want to be. Balanced, independent, knowledgeable, artistic, self-sufficient. Because while it may bring a lot of joy to live for others, you can only be happy when you live for yourself. And if I may quote the honorable philosopher Bunny, "Love is overrated". So I'd like to propose a toast to circuits and wires and neurons!

Happy New Year everyone!