Life is an endless search. For security. For happiness. For love. Life is an endless quest on a road with infinite ramifications and possibilities. But sometimes, rarely, sometimes, paths cross and you come face to face with yourself. Like looking through a mirror into the past. Going full circle and coming back at square one only to exchange a smile with mini-me. Listening to this song makes me feel like I've stumbled upon an old friend that I though lost forever. Either I've changed or Linkin Park went back on their creative steps, or we're both meeting half way, but somehow I feel like I'm 14 again. And it feels great!

Anniversary

I'm trying to find the words but they're not coming. I would like to be deep, profound, sensible, poetic. But I have nothing. The days have passed, the months have turned into years and I somehow feel that I should have gained more than a couple of "what if"s. 7 years ago, I started a new life on a new continent, leaving behind friends and family and everything I knew. And if it wouldn't have been for that particular day, I wouldn't be the same person today. I don't know if I changed for the good or for the worst, I don't know how I would have changed had I not moved. All I know is that I gained a lot, but I also lost a lot. And I sometimes feel stuck in between two planes, between two very different worlds and it's sometimes very hard to reconcile them. I sometimes wonder where that leaves me. Sometimes I'm happy, extremely happy where I am, and sometimes I yearn for that which is not part of my life anymore. Despite my best efforts, there are still days when I feel like I'm living in the past. Though, ironically, if I could choose between going back and staying here, I'd choose the life I have now. Because even though a part of my heart is overseas, an even bigger part is here. And I don't think I can give that up...

Recap

Yesterday's history

Tomorrow is a mystery
But today is a gift
That's why it's called the "present"

(Master Oogway - Kung Fu Panda)

Sorry I couldn't help myself. I had planned to post the quote of the month on the 26th like I usually do, but this fitted so well here that I couldn't resist. And I do know that this quote doesn't originate from Kung Fu Panda, but that's where I discovered it and I'm too lazy to look for the first person who actually said this.