The Grinch that stole Christmas

The older I get, the more the idea of Christmas escapes me. With every passing year the magic wears off more and more and I can't seem to get into the so called "Christmas spirit". The excitement disappeared and left only annoyance, frustration and pure coldness. I don't even know what this time of the year is supposed to feel like anymore. Objectively speaking what is Christmas? Last minute shopping in crowded malls where everyone is pushing and pulling and where you are running to get presents in a pre-established amount of time. Crappy sentimental stories (either real or invented) that are supposed to remind us of our humanity by shamelessly pulling at our heartstrings without any real regard for the issue at hand. Sort of like a general fad... hey it's Christmas so this is the one time of the year that we absolutely HAVE TO repeat to you ad nauseaum how love is the only real salvation for this world (in the absence of Jesus for the nonbelievers... though when you think about it, it comes down to the same thing since Jesus was probably THE initial hippie). People asking you for money at every street corner so it's basically a daily guilt trip whenever you take the metro. Commercials trying to convince you for the n-th time that absolute happiness CAN be found in a bottle of shaving cream and that your brother in law who can't stand the sight of you will have no choice but to love you for all eternity if you also get him a pack for Christmas. Dreary suppers where you hear the same stories and same jokes over and over again.

Ironically, the first time I actually felt a semblance of holiday cheer this year was when I heard this song earlier even though it has absolutely nothing to do with the season especially when you actually listen to the lyrics. But at this point, even a sterile and tasteless Christmas spirit is better than none. It's funny how memories and images can get imprinted onto music. I see my late godmother's yard filled with snow with the dark green bushes contrasting sharply. The sky is cloudy but it gives a bluish hue to the scenery that is soothing. It's early morning and absolutely desert and quiet. And that's it. An almost postcard entrance.



Does that mean that I would rather spend Christmas by myself? Maybe it's a good thing that I'm leaving soon. Funny how the solitude is what attracts me most about Paris. Everything is very scary in this move, but ironically, it is the idea that I will be alone and in peace that keeps me sane. I think the Big Bang Theory might be rubbing off on me and I'm slowly becoming Sheldon Cooper...

Soft Kitty or Ode to Sheldon

Soft Kitty
Warm Kitty
Little ball of fur

Happy Kitty
Sleepy Kitty
Purr Purr Purr

Another pointless rant or What Sheldon Cooper has contributed to my life

I constantly have to remind myself that this is not a place to display my every whim or my incessant whining (it's so much more fun to annoy my dad with that... and then have him tell me how I never shut up when he whines and talks twice as much as I do... it's funny how blissfully unaware some people are of the irony of their lives... well not on the spot, but thinking about it afterward it is... it's like the "not funny then, funny now" series on Chuck Lorre's vanity cards... and going back to the irony of people's lives, I'm pretty sure that includes me too, it's just that I'm unaware of it... hence blissfully unaware of the irony of my own life... but I digress...). As I was saying, this is not a place for me to whine. It's a place for intelligent thought and constructive ideas. This is not a Facebook account. And actually even Facebook is not really appropriate for displaying the entirety of your movements, thoughts, incidents, readings, feelings and pictures you have taken with your cat (I am especially not targeting anyone. *Hint, hint, wink, wink**Facebook whores*). I'm sorry, that was my little rant on people who can't move from one room to another without mentioning it on their wall. But coming back to the subject at hand, this blog exists for the purpose of intelligent thought and constructive ideas. But weirdly enough, it hardly feels constructive when nobody ever challenges them. I don't even know why I'm writing this here because I hardly have time for debates of ideas right now, but I guess it would feel less lonely out here. Ironically, when I created this blog, I wanted the solitude of binary space... because with the multitude of pages that are available on the Internet, it's easier to keep one's thoughts anonymous and hidden from the world than if I had written them in a diary and had it hidden in one of my drawers. But tonight I don't want to be alone. All I can picture in my mind right now is Sheldon Cooper's small, nerdy, chipmunk-like smile. I like Sheldon. His social awkwardness makes me laugh at the same time that it breaks my heart. And this was a pointless post from beginning to end. I think I need to read less of Chuck Lorre's vanity cards...

History of everything

Our whole universe was in a hot dense state,
Then nearly fourteen billion years ago expansion started, wait...
The Earth began to cool,
The autotrophs began to drool,
Neanderthals developed tools,
We built a wall (we built the pyramids),
Math, science, history, unraveling the mysteries,
That all started with the big bang!

"Since the dawn of man" is really not that long,
As every galaxy was formed in less time than it takes to sing this song.
A fraction of a second and the elements were made.
The bipeds stood up straight,
The dinosaurs all met their fate,
They tried to leap but they were late
And they all died (they froze their asses off)
The oceans and Pangea
See ya, wouldn't wanna be ya
Set in motion by the same big bang!

It all started with the big BANG!

It's expanding ever outward but one day
It will cause the stars to go the other way,
Collapsing ever inward, we won't be here, it won't be heard
Our best and brightest figure that it'll make an even bigger bang!

Australopithecus would really have been sick of us
Debating how we're here, they're catching deer (we're catching viruses)
Religion or astronomy, Encarta, Deuteronomy
It all started with the big bang!

Music and mythology, Einstein and astrology
It all started with the big bang!
It all started with the big BANG!